I’m glad to be off work lying on the sofa full of the cold nose is red raw with blowing it. Gaia has been brilliant, she’s hardly left my side. Nana is great after yesterday’s upsetting me today she’s been brilliant getting tissues and paracetamol for me.
Doesn’t even come close to how I’m feeling, I love my grandmother dearly but bloody hell she drives me mad. She appears to think that she knows what I’m about to say, she condescending towards me(she would say unintentionally but I don’t think so) and when I’m trying to train my puppy she is doing everything different and as a result confusing her which is contradictory to me. She asks questions when she wants another answer and therefore asks the wrong question and then tries to blame me for her idiotic question in the first place. Then she wonders why I got annoyed and frustrated and angry with her all at the same time but doesn’t seem to comprehend that she’s causing these emotions. I admit that I’m far from perfect and I am only human making mistakes but she doesn’t, she never admits that she is antagonistic and is looking for an argument. When is her next bus trip so that I can get a break from her.
Back is so bad today that the spasms are unbearable. It’s that bad I can barely walk feeling frustrated and fed up. Got hot water bottle on it and heading to bed soon in the hopes that when I wake up tomorrow I can walk tomorrow 😥
Sciatica flare up so signed off for a week. As I only have four weeks left at work, seriously considering extending it to the end of my term of employment as job is not great and even though I enjoy being at work in general I can’t stomach that place and the stress that they put me through even when not working they do it to the point that my ibs has gone into overdrive.
Went to bed very early last night because of the pain I was in. As it was my back I did the usual and woke constantly to shift positions and then this morning, the pain is worse and I am struggling to walk as my calf is sore too (just love sciatica) flare up. Think I’m gonna to see the doctor today because of it.
As the song goes, been offered and accepted a new job. Feeling happy because I’m going to continue my education and I won’t have to work in that toxic company. I thought that I was going somewhere good turns out that I went somewhere that encourages bullying bitching and backstabbing in the highest level. I will also get to wear a uniform which will mean that the clothes I wear will be me not work. It also means no more sleepovers and better shifts for Gaia. I’m looking forward to walking out that door of that place for the last time.
I am not the best at remembering things so I’ve started to keep records of people behaving wrongly. This is attitude, causing friction and being unprofessional. I’ve admitted in my records when I’ve caused a problem but I still think that the person causing the atmosphere needs to be brought into line however because he is a favourite he won’t be and he will be allowed to continue to behave in this appalling manner.